it come to be another serious monday morning. Everyones looks so tired..
i can't hardly even open my mouth..i am speechless.. and powerless..utterly..
other instructors feel in the same boat...it's so aweful that I am getting old.
I hate to be here but I need to be here for my wife...until we found some lucky day
there's lots of memory in my mind when I look back upon my old life in Silicon valley
it was such beautiful day that I've lived...with my friend.   So what the hack.. am I not happy
now?  I am too happy to say i'm lonely lonesome.. Taking piece of one sushi roll, I can feel
some freedom from my environment.  the disgusting environment. not only the circumstance
i would say i feel nautious about these people always hang around me.

Why doun't i think more positively.. anyway it's the price of i have to pay for.
no matter how i live today.. i have to face the reality and get strong..
i feel like i am dying for hot cholocate!!!. low sugar!!!

dear, my old friend, I will be strong and i will carry on
no matter how my life throw bad shape of the pattern.
I will honerly overcome those time for my life!!